Posts Tagged ‘5K’

Saturday, July 17, 2010

It’s been kind of awkward since Thursday. We talked on the phone later and she said she felt like a piece of trash because we weren’t actually together when we did what we did. I told her that we were still married even though we weren’t living together and that I thought it was entirely appropriate and that God was delighted that we did it.

She has been a little distant, though. I dont’ know if it scared her, or what. It seems like now she’s going out of her way to make sure she communicates that nothing has changed and we’re still separated. I get that, but I think it did mean something.

This morning, she ran in a 5K called “Girls Just Wanna Run” that’s sponsored by our fitness center. It was crazy hot and humid and most of the times weren’t very good. I volunteered as a traffic director out on the course and Ceecee gave me a high five as she came by. It was pretty great.

Then, afterwards, she went to talk to one of the instructors about a zumba class and when he asked if I was her husband, she hesitated for way too long before saying yes. Even so, I was glad to be there with her and for her, but it reminded me of how precarious our situation still is. It’s really agonizing to have all this love that I so desperately want to give her, but she so seldom receives any of it.

Afterward, we went to a couple of used car lots so she could look at cars. She asked me to and, of course, I said I would. We didn’t find anything and it seems that most of the payments are going to be too high for her, so she was pretty discouraged.

We also went into the CARE shelter where they rescue dogs and cats for adoption. She wanted to look at dogs and said if she can just pet them, then it helps her not to want one. Naturally, she found one she wanted and I have to admit, that little dog could steal your heart. I’m really against getting any pets, especially while living in a loft apartment and being gone so much, but that was maybe the only dog that I can imagine actually keeping. Plus, I would do just about anything for my wife right now to make her happy and show her that I care more about her than about myself.

She’s supposed to be having a girl’s night tonight. I wish I was going to be with her, but she needs to have friends and it will be good for her to do something just for fun.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

So, the rest of yesterday was weird. After the race, we went to the tri store and bought a bunch of stuff. I got some new Saucony running shoes and Ceecee got a pink cycling Jersey and some accessories. Then we went to my Dad’s birthday. I’m really glad Ceecee is still considering my parents to be family. It almost felt normal while we were over there. They don’t know anything about the problems we’re having and considering my track record of failed marriages and relationships, I can’t see telling them.

The sushi party was for the birthday of the wife of one of the teachers at the school where we work. It was mostly younger people there, but we hung out and ate and drank and had a good time. Seth, the guy whose house we were at, plays guitar in a band and he was singing some songs as the evening went on. They kept bringing out shots of tequila and I don’t like liquor, so I wasn’t really drinking them, but Ceecee kept taking shots and I figured she must be feeling them. She came and kind of sat on my lap while they were singing and I held her a little bit and caressed her back.

When we left, I tried to kiss her in the car and she turned away again. I couldn’t believe it. I thought that as much fun as we had and as close as we seemed that last night was the night for sure. It wasn’t. We drove home in a kind of awkwardness and I just don’t know what to do. I just don’t.

Saturday, June 5, 2011

It was my Dad’s 80th birthday yesterday and we are going to his and my Mom’s house this afternoon to celebrate. We also got invited to a sushi party by some friends from work and we’re going to that later tonight, so this is getting to be a really full day. Could turn out to be a good one. I still think Ceecee and I are really close to breaking through and putting this all behind us, so maybe tonight.

This morning, we ran our races and Ceecee got second place in the medical mile! I was so excited and proud of her. She didn’t even know she had placed until the announcer called out her name. She was 8th overall and second in her age group. She got a silver medal and I got a picture of her with this huge grin plastered all over her face.

I ran my first 5K and missed my goal by one second. If I had been experienced and known what I was doing, I could have made it, but as I was running to the finish line, I didn’t even look at the clock to see what the time was. Anyway, I got 30:01 and for my first race ever, it wasn’t bad. Hope the rest of the day is a success!

Friday, June 4, 2010

Not sure what’s going on with Ceecee, but her Facebook status today said, “My day is improving. Picked up packets for both races tomorrow and tonight is First Friday on the square. I plan to have fun and need to tonight.” Since she’ll be going to first friday with me, that definitely seems to have potential!

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

I surprised my wife today by pulling into the parking lot at CD Warehouse. We went in and I bought her the CD, Tea for the Tillerman, by Cat Stevens, the one that has Wild World on it. We listened to it in the car and it really seemed to bring back old memories for her.

Mort Fertel, the marriage guy who is emailing me said to give her a special gift that would really mean something only to her. It was supposed to be something that would show that I am paying attention to her wants and listening to her. He said it could change the momentum of the relationship. I don’t know if it will, but I want to do whatever it takes. We don’t have the money for me to buy something extravagant, but I would if I could.

On Saturday, I’m running my first 5k. I’m really glad to be getting back in shape. My wife inspires me to be better. She is running both the Medical Mile and the 5K and I’m hoping to run the 5k in 30 minutes.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

I started doing a running program called the “Couch to 5K” or C25K for short after Ceecee’s half-marathon. The goal is to get a person to be able to run a 5K race within about nine weeks starting from nothing. This morning, Ceecee ran a 5K race called the May Day 5K and I did the one mile fun run. I wasn’t even completely sure I could do the mile, but I did, and it was actually pretty easy.

Ceecee ran the 5K in just over 27 minutes and said her next race will be better. I was impressed with her time and think she did great. She even told me that her shoes came untied twice and she had to stop and tie them. She amazes me. She’s been swimming more and more and just gradually increases her distance. We go to the pool together and I try to encourage her, but she still doesn’t think she’s much of a swimmer.

She wants to run a marathon this year. She says it’s to “prove that she isn’t old.” She’s turning 39 in a couple of weeks, so I don’t know what she’s talking about. Anyway, they are starting a training program soon for the Bass Pro marathon and it’s $100 and I went ahead and signed her up today. She wants to do this and I support her. It’s through a running guru named Jeff Galloway who I’ve never heard of, but he has a book out and it’s supposed to be a big deal.