Posts Tagged ‘St. Louis’

Day 56 and Counting…A Bikini and She’s Going To Wear It!

Posted: November 1, 2012 in Love and Marriage
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Friday, October 1, 2010

Took Ceecee shopping today and she really surprised me. She bought this really cute bikini and wrote on Facebook, “Yes, I bought a bikini and yes, I’m going to wear it.” She’s usually very self-conscious about bathing suits and wears things to cover herself up, even at the pool.

I’m glad she did. It looked really good and it makes me feel good to think that she is feeling more confident in herself because of the way I treat her. I don’t know if that’s why or not, but it’s nice to see. She plans on bringing it to St. Louis and the hotel we’re staying at has a pool.

Day 53 and Counting… Planning Our Anniversary Week

Posted: October 29, 2012 in Love and Marriage
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Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Part of what we’re doing for our anniversary is going to Tennessee and attending an NFL game between the Eagles and the Titans, our two favorite teams. I’ve always loved the Philadelphia Eagles, and since most of Ceecee’s family lives in Tennessee, they’ve all become Titans fans.

Our actual anniversary is in the middle of the week, and the game is the weekend after. The weekend before, we’re going to run the Halloween 10K in St. Louis. It’s a race through downtown where a lot of people run in costumes and it sounds great. By sandwiching it between the two weekends, we are going to kind of make this year’s anniversary a week long celebration.

Day 37 and Counting… Great Memories in a Great City

Posted: October 11, 2012 in Love and Marriage
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Sunday, September 12, 2010

Wish we could have just frozen this weekend in St. Louis and made it last forever. These days were about as close to perfect as any have ever been in my life. We went to all of our favorite places, laughed until our sides ached, and I’ve got to be the luckiest man who has ever lived.

Day 35 and Counting…Playing Hooky

Posted: October 10, 2012 in Love and Marriage
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Friday, September 10, 2010

We played hooky from work and went to St. Louis this weekend. That’s a little tricky to do, since we both work at the same place. We can’t really just both call in sick, so I put “out of town appointment” as the reason to be gone. I figured they’ll assume it’s a doctor’s appointment and I won’t tell them any different.

Ceecee and I are going through this amazing awakening in our marriage and it just keeps growing. Everything seems new and we are experiencing things we never knew were possible. I don’t how long it can stay like this, but I’m pretty much living the dream right now.

Day T-16 and Counting…

Posted: August 21, 2012 in Love and Marriage
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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Ceecee agreed to go with Brianna and me to spend the day in St. Louis today. Bri was worried that we would be fighting, but I told her it’s not like that. We went to the zoo and had a blast. It’s still really hot, but there are a bunch of indoor parts of the St. Louis Zoo, so we tried to stay cool. Then Ceecee and Brianna went into this fountain that you can get under like a waterfall and I took pictures. They both got completely soaked and I got some great pics.

We went to lunch at Guido’s on the Hill and had an unbelievably good time. We sat outside and ate lunch and talked and laughed for the longest time. We told stories about the past and I noticed that for the first time since our separation, Ceecee talked about happy memories of our past. For a long time now, she only talks about the bad things that have happened, but today, something changed. It was like she remembered that we’ve had a good life together.

When we got back to her place and we went in to help carry in the groceries she bought at the Hill, she kissed me goodbye. I was totally shocked, but I tried not to show it. It wasn’t much of a kiss, just a tiny peck, but she initiated it and seemed totally comfortable with it in front of Bri.

Day T-38 and counting…

Posted: July 27, 2012 in Love and Marriage
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Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Time for a dose of reality, I guess. We had a lot of fun in St. Louis yesterday and it was late when we got back so I crashed at the loft, but today, Ceecee said it was time for me to go and us to spend some time apart. She was sweet about it, but firm and I didn’t expect it to hurt nearly as much as it did.

She said she needed time to be by herself and figure things out and that was why we were separating. I lost it and just cried and cried after I left. I had to go home to the old apartment, and I’m sure Taylor was glad to see me, but I was a wreck and not worth seeing.

Day T-39 and counting…

Posted: July 26, 2012 in Love and Marriage
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Monday, June 28, 2010

I think I did something in that fall yesterday, because my ribs are really sore. Other than that, things are pretty good. It was weird, but on Facebook, my mother-in-law said she heard that I might be coming out to Kansas and that it would be good to see me. I don’t know how much she knows about what’s going on, or what Ceecee has told her, but I figure if she’s reaching out to me, I’m going to take it as a good sign and go see her.

I’ve told my parents a version of the truth that’s very slanted. I’ve allowed them to believe that Ceecee moved on ahead of me because our lease wasn’t up yet, and that since Taylor isn’t ready to go into the Air Force, he’s going to stay in the old apartment while I kind of go back and forth between the two temporarily. They seem to be buying it and I don’t have the heart to tell them anything else. I’ve been divorced twice and this marriage has been the real deal. We’ve been together longer than my previous two marriages combined, and my parents have completely taken Ceecee and her kids as part of the family.

I believe that things are going to work out and I’m hoping that they will just never know the truth. If they don’t work out, well, I can’t face that. They just have to. On that subject, we’re going to St. Louis today to spend the day and I’ve spent every night in the loft so far. I can’t say I’m happy because everything is so uncertain, but so far, it’s been a lot better than I anticipated.

Day T-76 and counting…

Posted: June 29, 2012 in Love and Marriage
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Saturday, May 22, 2010

Ceecee ran with her group again this morning and then we hurried off to The Hill in St. Louis. The weather was great and we ate outside at Milo’s, a bar and grill right in the heart of The Hill on Marconi St. They have bocce courts and there was a wedding party that was playing while we ate. It was both fun and funny to watch them in their tuxes and dresses out there playing bocce. Like before, while we were there, it almost seemed like our problems weren’t happening. Like we stepped away from our troubled reality and into a make-believe world where we were still Brian and Ceecee.

Day T-83 and counting…

Posted: June 22, 2012 in Love and Marriage
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Saturday, May 15, 2010

Ceecee called me this evening because she got turned around in St, Louis and couldn’t find her way to where she was going. Other than that, I didn’t hear from her. She doesn’t like to talk on the phone, especially when she’s driving, and I’m sure she and Ann were talking a lot. She was also going to take a break from me, or us, or whatever, so I didn’t really expect to talk to her much. I haven’t spent a night alone in a long time.

Day T-87 and counting…

Posted: June 20, 2012 in Love and Marriage
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Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Taylor graduates tonight and Ceecee has had a headache all afternoon. She has never had trouble sleeping until the last year or two and it’s really bad lately. I’ve always had struggles with insomnia and sleeplessness, so I’m pretty much used to it, but she really doesn’t function well when she’s not sleeping.

She’s come up with this idea that she wants to go to St. Louis by herself as part of this whole “finding out who she is” thing. She says she wants to see what it’s like to go and not be dependent on me to drive and take care of everything. I don’t like the idea, so we came up with a compromise. She and my sister, Ann, share the same birthday, so they are going to go together. They are getting separate rooms, so that it’s a break for Ceecee, but she won’t be completely going by herself. I don’t feel good about it, but what can I do? I’m not going to forbid her and she really seems to be set on this.

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